shame

random thoughts on shame

i think about how the graciousness of God spared me and how his kindness has followed me since the very beginning. never once being angry.

and then i think about shame. what if shame actually wasn’t created to hurt us as humans?

yes, shame sucks and it hurts and it has the ability to destroy self worth.. BUT what if the enemy actually created shame to hurt the father? shame in and of itself can’t touch the Father. he is above that. outside of that. but what he is not outside of is his kids.

us.

if i give in and let shame weave itself in and out of my story, then i think more than anything it affects my view of how the father views me. while shame does affect how i view myself, the real underlying problem with letting shame write my story is that it tells my mind that the Father is disappointed in me, angry at me, always trying to change/fix me.

i think that's what hurts the Father - when his own kids believe lies about his character and who he is. when in reality, he is gracious. kind. loving. maybe, i have it wrong, but maybe shame was actually intended to hurt the Father and his relationship with his kids more than it was intended to hurt my self point of view.